teluk pahang adventure....

On 27/02/07...after our supper at Subaidah,7 of us...me,Ting wei,Yean Zheng,Poke,Ah Beh,Jin Khun,Yee En decided to went up 2 Teluk Pahang Dam...well..Poke sponsor his car n Yean Zheng drive his car...wow..n the best is..7 of us get into a WAJA...coooollllll.....n kia kia(scare)...we went up there at about 1 sumthing....in the morning..hehe...

Ting Wei sleeping ler......no la...he cant tahan the flash

Pokes face so big....n the another half was Yee En


Jin Khun and Ah Beh..well...dats Ting Wei nice middle finger

We reach there at about 1.50++ gua..not sure about dat...nothing much there..but the street light..quite nice..when we reach there...there are a gang there...i think they are racer lo...sitting there n chit chating...n the entry was close...well..hehe...we climb thru the door n get in there....muahaha....

me n cow( Yean Zheng)


friends..erm..nice pose Jin Khun..and actually poke
was beside me..i hink he is too fat..so cant fit in XD

wat we pointing at??swt...

Before...

After...

Walking in the middle of the road

After dat....jz went back...but.on the way...there was police .....wow..luckily din get caught...if not..chamzzzz...lol...well..reach home at 3 sumthing..was so tired....erm..quite a fun day gua....n also a sad day for me...hehe...

sumthing which is really hard 2 explain...

Today..went to queensbay mall...at 1st...my mood was good...until the moment i saw her...it turn me down...

At 1st..i thought i would b ok...but..after a few moment...i feel sumthing wrong wif my heart...it's like...sum1 scratching on it...

After dat...tears coming out from my eyes...i tahan n tahan n tahan...finally..i went to toilet...i sit in the toilet...n think...n the tears falls down from my eyes...

After a few moment of thinking...i noe i was wrong as wat i had wrote on las blog...is not dat i pain until i cant feel the pain anymore..is...it is stil the same...i feel it...everytime i c her...

I stil cant let her go...i stil cant......when wil it b??

I asked them wat can i do...they told me i already got the answer in my heart...the said u already made up ur mind....jz u duno...only u wil noe how 2 do...but...in my heart...there r no answer...i really duno wat to do...

I jz ask the god...y she did dis to me??i wana noe the answer??i really wan it...but....who n how can i get it??

思念~~

现在已经是早上４点,而我却坐在电脑荧幕前,心里充满着无穷的思念,更难以致信的是,已经疲惫的我,眼睛还是那么大的开着,一点倦意也没有.....真可怕呀!!!!

自从2007年的开始,我就没有一样事情做得顺利,这已彻底的将我从一座高楼推下似的,我就这样,很难的慢慢爬起来.那么多件事里,最让我心痛的是她的离去.事情开始时,我以为我和她还有机会再复合,我一直给自己希望,坚强的等下去,努力的改变自己的缺点,为的全是她的回来.可是,我错了,她离我而去,不是因为家人的反对,而是她的心早已变了.也因为这样,我从爱变恨...我恨她,我恨她骗我,我恨她不告诉我真相,我恨她从不给我机会改过,我恨她偷了我的心却不还给我....如果她老老实实告诉我她已经对我没有感情了,也许我会原谅她,可她...给了我一个理由,却在不久后跟另外一个男人交往..我真的伤透了.......这伤...却很难痊愈...很难..........我已经不懂得在去爱一个人了....因为我现在已经是一个没有心的男人了....T_T

我是那么的恨她..那为何我现在还在想着她呢??难道我说我恨她只不过是想找个理由让自己好过一点吗?我是真的恨她...还是还爱着她呢??我真的搞不清楚...现在我脑里..全是我从前和她有过的美好画面...我真的很希望她能在回到我身边...能再爱我一次...可是我知道如果真的能实现...那...一定是在我的梦里...如果真的能...我很希望这梦是永远,长久的......毕竟..现实还是现实...我还是失去了她...她在也不会回到我身边了....

在这一个月里..为她痛,为她哭,为她发疯,为她失去理智...她会在乎吗??答案是...她根本不把我所的一切放在心上...她已经把我当作是透明了....我一直都在问自己...我是个笨蛋还是长情的人呢??有人说我是笨蛋..有人说我是长情....也人说两个都是....你说呢??

现在,我已痛到麻木了...任何伤痛...我也感受不到了....只因心已变淡了...在我的世界里..希望早已变成绝望..奇迹在也不会出现了...这一个月多里...每天都在思念她...但是..她却忘了我...在她的世界里...那男人早已把我给代替了....老实说...我真的不甘心...不过还是得接收事实...有时我还是会问...我真的那么不好吗??我真的比不上那男人吗??疑问一直出现在我脑里...这也使我的信心一天比一天减少....也使我对别人的信任也跟着改变....

每天,我只能找些活动去做,做些会使我累的东西来麻醉自己...我也意识到...我身体状况一天比一天弱...但..我没有办法...我还是得继续...只因我不想再去想起她....每天我总会问自己...如果有一天她真的能回到我身边,那么那天会是在何年何月何日呢??如果有一天她真的能回到我身边,我还会接收回她吗??可能那使的我,早已有了另外一半.....也可能我还在等着她..不过..往后的日子..谁会知道呢??

所谓:"多情自古空余恨,此恨绵绵无绝期."...情让我痛,让我高兴,也让我成长....我也真的受够了...不希望什么,只希望往后的日子,我能过的开心点罢了...那..我已经心满意足了...

说着说着..也已经是早上5点多了...睡虫也爬出来了....我想我还是去找周杰伦的公公吧!!!ｈｅｈｅ．．．ｏｋ ｌａ..晚安给我...那早安给你们吧!!再见..........

ＴＨＥ ＥＮＤ．．．

Valentine's Day~~~

Valentine's day over d....haha...and...i passed thru dis day wif a very happy,nice,memorable,funny mood...haha...wel..on that day...Me,Hong Yew,Kent Win and Yeow Hun went to Queensbay in the afternoon...Yeow Hun wana shopping...so we went there...and...walk here walk there...wow...and i feel that...haha...my leg was so pain...as...it's been long time i din walk for so long...and now...haha....i've feel the pain...but..it's stil ok la...cuz..can train mer...nex time go walk again...sure i wont feel the pain anymore....hehe...

After few hours of window shopping....Yeow Hun finally decide wat to buy d...HOWEVER...Me,Hong Yew and Kent win punya leg...almost patah lo..haha...n finally..we left there at about 4.30pm++...cuz..hav to rush home and change den go for football game...hehe...

WaHHhhHHhHhhhhHHh.......during the football match...i duno "up" wat form...lol..i scored 2 goals...lol...and...it's a quite good valentine's day gift for me...as i nv score a goal for such a long time d....n finally..i score d....YiPpPpEeeeeEEeeeEEeee......well...we played until about 7 sumthing...den i chaozzz....n i went to Yewzz...house n change my cloth...den..we went to Subaidah n had our dinner..wow...it was so jam....really W.T.F...waste my petrol a lot...haiz....den..after i finish my dinner...hehe...i went to VICKY house to complete my mission which Hsien gave it to me..hehe.......and....wow...she change a lot lo...dy her hair d...it's been a long time i din c her d...lol...well..jz went there for while only...den after that i went back to Subaidah....den...after finish gather all my frens...yes...we all went to Crown Jewel..hehe

WoWwWW....there r so many couple there....hehe...and...7 of us r single guys..wow....cool...(i think so XD)...we found a place n sit down...den....we start playing guitar....n we sang....hehe....well..it is quite fun...sang lots of song n we also made our own lyrics while my fren were playing guitar...hehe...SUDDENLY....2 gal came by and said..."that gal over that asked can she choose a song and then u guys play n sing...??'...wow...n that time we was like...COOL...haha...den Chee Hao...think of a song...it took about few mins...den he start playing and we start singing lo...haha...but..we havent finish it...that gang of gal said they hav to leave...n said bye bye to us...i'm the one who reply them...den after that i realise dat...."WOIIII....FORGOT TO TAKE HP NUMBER LA...>!!!!!!!!!!"...haha...but...too late d...they went far adi...HAIZ...SAD...den after that...we continue sing lo...as we continue sing...most of the couples walk away.,..i think they goin home d lo...cuz late d mer...hehe...sang n sang n play n play n laugh n laugh...mana tau...HUJAN DAH TURUN...haiz...bo ho nia...we leave the beach....

We feel that haiz...2 early la..so we decide went to the pool in CROWN JEWEL hotel..we sat there n play guitar n sing again...and suddenly think of an idea...haha.....and...we took the video down....enjoy it...XD

After that...we went to eat again...haha..on the way 2 Khaleel....lol..i race wif Yee Chern.....KANCIL vs WAJA...cool...no 1 who win or lose la...haha...den after eat....jz go home lo

Ermm....i think it was a special valentine's day for me lah...never did dis kind of thing bfor...erm..quite enjoy it...well...Single BUT...stil ROX

movie....

Well...2day..for the first time i went to watch movie since unhappy thing happened...the movie i watched named "Blood Chocalate"...wel...it's a middle rank movie...not really bad but yet not really nice...haha...

For the past 1 month..i dun dare to go into cinema 2 watch movie...bcuz i scare of the feelings...i scare when i'm in the cinema...i'll think of the moment i'm wif her...the sweet moment we went to watch movie las time...the happy moment we spend in the cinema...the feelings of holding her hand...the feelings of hugging her n keep her warm...i miss that..but..i noe i hav to throw this away n move on...cuz...it is imposible 2 happen again...so...2day..i bcome brave...n i went to watched movie...at 1st...it is really ok...while u concerntrated watching movie..u wil not think of anything...but...when the movie started to get boring....OMG....my brain wont listen 2 me anymore....the picture keep coming out...n i jz cant resist it...i cant stop it...it makes me feel like....W.T.F....it's over...stop it...it's the past....Teik Houng..u stupid...dun think of it anymore...watch ur movie...haha

Erm....this situation stayed about more den 1/2 hour...dat's really sucks...it almost makes my tears fall down from my eye...i already waste lots of my tears for dis gal...n i really dun wan 2 waste any drops for her anymore(i hope so)....no more..my tears r save for others which i love more in future...for my family...not for YOU(can i??).......BLEKZZZZZ.......jz wana express my feelings...hehe...and at last....i get to concerntrated on my movie...n i finished it...

Well...it's a good start...i'll try 2 work on it...i'll try 2 do better....time makes me stroger...i'll get back all which belongs 2 me sumday.......HMP....ok...stop here...goin 2 OiNk oInK d......nite nite.....BYEZZZ.....

CHAMZZzzZZzzzzZZz........

Hehe....the tittle....las nite chat wif SABBY eh si find tiok eh....haha...well...yesterday chat tiok new year cloth....she told me that she spent her money n finally she get a red colour shirt for her new year d....haha....but then...she now PK liao...thats y she said cham...and i turn cham to "CHAMZZzzZZZzzz..."..lol....

Say tiok ChAMZzzZZzzz....den really ChAmZZZZzzzzZZZzzzzZZzzzzZZzzz ar....chinese new year is jz around the corner...but...until now....i stil havent buy any new cloth for my self.....SOB SOB...T_T....and time pass so fas...n yet i'm sitting here writing blog...XD..din go buy any new cloth...haha...swt swt....another 1 week left...really ChAmZZzzzzzZZZzzZzzzz....

Another "ChAmZzzZZZZzzzzZZZzzzzzZZzz..'' is dat...14/2 is coming ler...and...i'm stil single & available....XD..haha...anyway...dis year is my 19th lonely valentine day...when wil i not b lonely again leh???hmmm...wondering ler... ~~~PRAY PRAY PRAY~~~ (GOD....I WISH DAT NEX YEAR I WILL CELEBRATE VALENTINE DAY WITH THE ONE I LOVE...OR...DIS YEAR...LET ME CELEBRATE IT HAPPILY....WITHOUT ANY SAD THING HAPPEN...~~~~^^)...hehe.....

HmmMmMmMmmm.....i think hor....ChAmZzZZZZZZzzzzZzzZZzz enuf d la..dun wan continue ChAMZZzzZZzzZZZz d...abo later wil kok ka ChAmZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzzZZzz......hehe...

my 1st time...n the story..

MUAHAHAHA....this is my 1st time posting my blog in here...wahh...so excited ler(really??)haha....well...i do hope i can express all my feelings here...

Today is 8th of February...my friend has gone for already 2days...so sad so sad...when i said gone...it does not mean he is dead...and i mean he already went to Australia for 2 days liao..so sad la...my best friend ever...Hsien ...have to further his study by going to Australia for about FOUR years...walao..so long...we only get to meet each other for about twice a year...haiz.... DOWN DOWN DOWN .....but..still..he have to go la...

Before he went to Australia...his gf plan to give him a surprise farewell party...well...i do take part in organising this party...it move quite smooth...for the 1st time i organise a BBQ so success...quite proud of my self la...hohoho...hehe...thick face d...hehe..well...not only me doing this party la...must also thanks to my friend...Hong Yew ..he also part of the organiser...he help me collect money and fetch me go buy some goods....hehe...thanks again ya...everything is under control...muahahaha(evil laugh)....

Well....after finish buying everything...the time has come...3rd of February...at about 5pm...i start my journey to Crown Jewell liao..walao..so jam la...that is because the day bfor that was Thaipussam....haiz...take me about 45 mins++ to reach there...after bring everything to the sea side....we start on the fire...well...lots of crap during start the fire...haha..but at least...get to start also la...abo...we wont get to eat anything d...haha...during eating...we are waiting for our main character reach..hehe...

About 9 like that...he reach d...he came with his eyes cover with a cloth...he cant see anything...his gf slowly bring him in...and he stand in front of us...well...he is quite surprise after see all of us are there...waste ler...did not get to see he cry...sad sad....well...we just go around and took pic la...as usual la..

such a lovely couple...^^

deeping burger into wine..haha^^''


another group of friends..."halo"


he came in just in time..==''..like GHOST

Loong,HSIEN,Me,Edmond

That day i'm quite busy lor...cause..want to give my friend Hsien and Min Min ..which is our Ah sou a surprise mer... Wahhh....... run here run there..."chuan" die me d....haha...i wana do a love shape which made of fire...at 1st...cant sucess due to the strong wind there..but at last...god also help me d....it works...haha...so happy ler...

Fire of LOVE

Well...after that...hehe...what a couple must do leh when this kind of ROMANTIC scense happen...hehe....we guys ask them to kiss each other...and..finally...di bawah paksaan kita...they... Muahahahahahaha...............

SO ENJOY LER.....^^''

After everything done....and all friends wish them....i moved to aside and sit down...i look at the sea...many picture between me and my ex-girl friend came out of my mind...suddenly i feel like crying...but...Loong..suddenly stand beside me n start singing....and it end up...i keep laughing..haha...and suddenly again...SABBY...throw sand in front of me...that really frightened me up...i thought got what thing fly in front of me....phew...it's just sand...haha...well...while waiting for our main character come back...me and my fren take the bottle and throwing 2 each other...walao...he is so strong...throw until HOLLAND there...makes me feel lazy to pick it up..haha...after a few mins...he came back already...and continue chit chating with all of our friends....

About 12 something....we get our butt up and clear up the thing...and it took us about 20 mins la...then...i saw SABBY puting of the fire on the "hui tua"...then..i asked POKE stand on the sand..which is very hot...and we close his leg wif sand...haha...few mins later..he feel hot n keep on shouting...but we ask him not to come out as we wana took pic mer...haha..

you can smell some POKE LEG MEAT smell....hehe

After finish everything...it's time to say goodbye...and by the way...that night...the moon was so bright and so round...and it look really beautifull....hmm...so enjoy...hope that there will be another fun party like this again....and...lastly...thanks for the attending and the participating of this party ya...good luck to you Hsien ..all the best in AUSTRALIA....miss you...